This last week has been one for the record books.
No time has been available to even write a few lines of prose. When you are a full time care giver for your parents, even sleep is a luxury. Now I know the horrible truth about an undesirable future every baby boomer has already faced, is dealing with now or dreading.
Occasionally, weird ideas pop into your mind and you wonder how in the world it is possible such strange thoughts could ever become a part of your reality.
It is horrible to say, but at times you face a wide range of temptations that hit you like black evil anvils dropping out of the clear blue sky. The temptation to be angry at God, parents, siblings, spouses and the world in general, circles around occasionally, just like a bad penny that keeps turning up. When extreme sleep deprivation and almost unbearable stress climax at radical levels, these wild thoughts and other
bizarre imaginations filter through your weakened mental and spiritual defenses.
Of course you would never give into these terrible thoughts, but it is a very strange experience to watch this weird process in your minds eye.
Often, I wonder it other baby boomers have similar thoughts. I believe it is a strategy of our spiritual enemies to try to make us guilty. The thing to remember is that the temptation is not a sin.
Prayer during these times is a powerful defense.
When these wild and weird and unthinkable thoughts enter your mind, my only defense is to cry out in the name of “Jesus” for the help that is always available, if we go to Him in prayer. Sometimes it is almost like a legion of demons and devils are hammering at your mind 24 hours a day with their sharp pitchforks of evil…poking,
prodding and puncturing your sense of peace.
If only, if only, if only my parents would have taken the advice of the Health Heroes in the Alternative Medicine Hall Of Fame at HealthyDoctors.com.
I feel so inadequate lately, while dealing with all the health issues in my family. Changing diapers, moving limbs that are dead weights, cleaning up spilled food, running errands, etc. really sap your energy. I am desperate to publish the valuable health information from the Alternative Medicine Pioneers.
By the end of the day, I can hardly transcribe even one line of the interview of the greatest doctors in the alternative medicine world.
My prayer is that events here will lighten up a little so I can work on the doctor interviews. Over 20 are still on tape, desperately waiting their turn to see the light of the internet.
Please forgive me for my snails pace.
I am working as fast as a “one armed paper hanger.” (-:
To Be Continued….