Dear Friends,
Today is my birthday and I feel depressed and miss my mom and dad bigtime! They were the only ones who really cared whether I lived or died from the beginning of my life. It is tough to be an orphan and no one willing to adopt me (-:
I guess I am going through the same thing so many of you have described as the ups and downs of losing one or both parents. My emotional and physical biorhythms are in the tank, totally in the energy recuperation phase. I know I will feel better when the emotional bottoms out on Monday. It is good to know this is just a part of the natural cycles of life…the ups and downs.
I am just thankful I am not on any mood elevating drugs that alter the natural cycles of emotional and physical fluctuations…the true human experience. If we did not have highs, how could we identify the lows.
Life would be a totally boring state of non-existence, numbed to the experiences that bring the extremes of emotions. I for one am thankful for the roller coaster ride. It brings spice and excitement to life and helps me deal with the thoughts of suicide at this difficult time.
take care,
ralph