Dear MarkHBE,
Thank you for your condolences.
I am so sorry both your parents died when you were a teenager. Dealing with long illnesses is a challenging and oftentimes a horrific experience.
After four years of taking care of my mom and dad, it was agonizing to see them deteriorate slowly, especially in the light of the knowledge I gained in 30 years of alternative medicine research. I could have helped them so much.
They could have enjoyed longer lives and less suffering if only they were open to the wisdom I learned from top alternative medicine doctors all over the world.
But, my promise to them was to allow them full choice while they were alive, to choose their own destiny without me imposing what I believed was the right thing for them. It is so frustrating when you see your loved ones suffering and you know the answer that would solve their suffering in a matter of days.
I am feeling better every day. I feel my mom and dad’s presence especially at mass every day when I approach the throne of God and have a little bread and wine with them. Every day I go, I feel closer and closer to them. I can hear their comforting words and feel their gentle touch.
I do keep the rest of my family and my friends close. They are a very special blessing and they do make me feel good.
I decided to get back into the physical activities I loved the most: teaching the “Inner Game Of Tennis,” working out at a gym in Ocean Beach and playing and teaching “Tapeworm Tennis.”
I still suffer the extreme loss of the two people who loved me the most. Life is empty without them, but I am making small gains in focusing on the present and living in reality rather than the past.
Take care,
ralph